刚刚看到最近的一篇blog都还是关于sub的，来到PSU快一年了，看来自己真是lazy girl啦，都一直没有更新。总觉得是自己无意识的把不高兴的记忆删除了，每每回忆过去将近一年的生活，还是充满感激和喜跃的。感谢身边的朋友，总是能给我带来各种各样的经历和收获，要知道跟你们在一起的每一时每一刻我都很珍惜的！感谢家人一如既往的支持和关怀，每次跟家里通电话，都有说不完的话题，要知道我是很爱你们的！

      无聊的时候，经常会到处逛逛，看看朋友过得怎么样。想想当初一起读书，但现在却是如此不同的生活。各色的生活总会让我感触很多。

      突然发现写blog还是很累的，哈哈，今天就写这么多了~~~

When I started this, it seems nothing in my heart can be expressed in words. I spent 20 dollars for some information that made me soulless and emotionless. At first, I thought I could accept this like a mature adult. But it proves when things come to me, I am still not that...

         Maybe life is too easy for me these days, and this is just a little reminding from the God. Life is not easy for everyone, no pains, no gains, I have to fight for what I want!

           I believe I am reasonable enough for the decision of my own future. Just get down to do some real work.

If you havn't trying to get to know it, it will seem very professional
and difficult. That is not limited with POPING.
      The day before yesterday, I attended a class given by Lv Meng who is
really good at POPING, it is great to dance with a bunch of people who have
the same interest as you(^-^). Although I didn't get into this little group
partly because of the fee, partly because lack of time. But I fell in love
with this dance the moment I got to know it. Actually, most of my interests
faded with time going on, but I believe dancing will be my lifelong
interest, and I will never ever get bored with such a energetic activity.
     
       I got a little progress yesterday after intensive practice on POPING.
I got my muscle and learned to control it. That is not easy but totally
worth trying.
       Oh, I forgot to mention about the POPING. He is very cute and his
dance is fascinating. With a kind characteristic no one will be ugly I
believe(^-^)  Kind of off the theme, mainly what I want to remeber is the
feeling when I am dancing. It seems I could totally get involved in a activity

and then anyone that is professional enough will be my officially idol.

OK, over!

Something I know clearly about myself is that no problem can harass me for more than two days, I can think of all ways to "get rid of" anything. It is really a quick move to me.
     I've fell in love with Hip-Hop not long ago, and yesterday I have dicided to be a little"professional". Then the only thing left is getting down to work. So this morning I went shopping with a counterpart. She is also in need of apair of trousers like me, and she is like a pro, of course more familiar with these stuff, that is what I value--I can learn from her and get some improvement from her.
     Now, I am here to report my booty-- a fat trousers the one just of my type, a strap for decoration, and the earring which is kind of my dream. It didn't cost me much, but I think I have my own way to make it up. Not bad...
     Ok, since I have truely got into this, I think I would like to make it better and to be a pro to some extent. Come on,you can do it!(^-^)

     Actually, one of my reasons for going abroad is to learn the original Hip-hop, maybe from the Black. I believe I can do it, and the most important is it is fascinating, enjoyable.
     You can never imagine the surprise when I came to a new island in dancing--Hip-hop. Just before this, hip-hop is just what i am saying, but now it is what I am doing, or you can say hip-hop is what I am...so cool~~~
     I've always believed trying new things are kind of enticing, cauz you will never know the result, and most of the time, you can get something you have never imagined--that is what I've been eager for.
     I had never and will never regret about my decision of taking part in the IceFire, at least, I've got the music, the wooden floor, the mirror, and most important of all, a bunch of friends who loves dancing just like me. Then last Thursday, I've got a message from my Hip-Hop teacher that we could attend the courses in Tianjin University for free. DBX is the group there and they teach the basics of Hip-Hop. So my first try came last Friday, and it is fantastic I can tell you. I finally found my group who take Hip-Hop as their life. I learned a few moves there, and came to know what is real Hip-Hop, they are really pros. I even watched their battle, we were devided into three groups and had a battle among us. At that very moment, I think I got the feeling I've been looking for in my dream.
     I believe I will stick to the end, and it is really good to know so many friends and it will never been too late. I can do it if I want(^-^)
Come on, for my dream~~~~

Guess God have a bigger plan than I have already had for myself. You are the Angel God sent me....
    I will never regret about my dicision to go to a free movie on Friday night, I believe all the movies the foreign teacher had got are just my type.
    Tonight, it is about faith which help people with their transformation and enjoy what they want to be.
    Actually, I didn't think the first fifteen minutes of the movie to be boring or unatracting, on the opposite I was absessed in the music the first moment the movie begun. To some extent, that is just the life I am going to try, so real and complicated. A boy who is just bad as everyone could think of. But that is kind of natual considering the friends he has got and other problems he has in life. Just like the girl said, I saw something good in him. Then there comes the girl, who is just as pure as a holy Angel. She has faith in herself and just act like the dream girl the boy had expected, just not the same way he used to think. As we can imagine, the girl influences the boy in a way that he didn't feel. For the first time, he does something seriously and normally. Gradually, he falls in love with her and has faith in himself because she has faith in him. the boy is really kind of clever, he helps her realize her dream to be at two places at the same time.It seems the story would end like that for a loved couple, then the shock comes to the boy---she has cancer and nothing could do to help her to be healthy longer. Nothing could stop him from loving her now, he just does what he could to make her happy and one by one, her dreams on the list are realized with his help---a bigger telescope to see the comet, a dance with the people she loves and the top on the list, to marry in the church just like her parents did. This also helps the boy to get back to his father whom he hadn't talked with for a long time. Isn't that a miracle, when the God closes a door in front of you, he opens a window somewhere. The girl died after spending a fantastic summer with the boy, and the boy did realize his dream which seemed unpractical to his mother. Yes ,just like her father tells, the boy is the miracle that happened to the girl, their love is like the wind, you never see it but you can feel it!

I cannot help thinking about my Angel, maybe he is somewhere waiting for me to change his life (^-^)

   

Whenever I come into someone who lost weight successfully, I would rather to think about myself, and the unsuccessful experience. Actually, it is known to almost everyone, to lose weight, you need to eat less and do more exercises. And I did lost some weight last summer when I had a match and an exam to take. But after that, I was immune to losing weight, and I had hardly any experience since then.

          Ok, I need a figure just like ordinary people, but when my level is under the common standard, I've got to think about it. After so many times of losing experience, I finally made the decision---to do what it takes for my destination. It is more about will, and I 've got to challenge it.

           some time in the past, I had the promise that if I was asked to give up something for a better offer, it would be the loss on my figure, and this seemed to be a curse since then. ( Actually, I believed in something like you have to pay for your gains, no one can be perfect in every aspect) But now, I have a promise to make to revise my decision. I choose both of these aspects to be good. I believe I can do it with my will and heart! 

          Keep fit and at the same time lose weight. I can do it (^-^)

Hehe, I don't want to make it clear what makes me so firm about this, but I
can tell you it is about a pair of trousers and someone I even don't want to
mention (they do not worth it).
       Someone told me it would not be on your schedule if there wasn't some
kind of simulation. I guess this is the very motive.
     Ok, nothing more, just do it from now on (^-^)

       Ever since the last exam of my entire college life, I came to another life, I think, either in the aspect of lifestyle or in the state of mind. It is said that after you choose to go abroad to study, you will find it more and more complicated and time-consuming. Actually, I am not sure why things are just opposite in my situation. Now it seems nothing can disturb me from enjoying life and doing what I want.

       At first, I thought I could have two tutor job this semester and also some other part-time jobs and be partly independent in financial. That was really a good idea even though I havn't put it into practice yet. It seems that I realized the toughness I need to handle when dealing with those parents and it would cost a lot my energy. I am more willing to do some easy job. So I just applied for a part-time job in school and there is still another tutor job needing to be confirmed. At least, I need those money to some extent.

      You may be a little confused about my major job at the stage because I would always like to do several jobs at the same time, and it is always the case that I forget to put enough emphasis on the most important one.

      Step by step, I got to maybe the last part of my applying process--choosing the universities and preparing the materials and money. I am really not sure if this being my delay or other's early move. But still there is a lot to do in front of me, however, I don't know how to start. Maybe I am just waiting for some help, but for the first time,  I am kind of hopeless. To some extent, you have to fight your own way to the success, especially when it comes to new things.

      Ok. Come on, just go through the darkness, then it will be the dawn you have expected.

  It is really hard to describle my feeling after reading Smilexr's diary on line. The life of mine at this time next year just came up to me. No matter what happened, life is going on. You have got to adopt to the environment. You will get new friends. It is all about a totally new life. At first, i got excited whenever i thought of the life there, but ever since i changed my value, or kind of attitude. I can keep really calm now, at least it is still the life itself in a way that you can control.

         I can see Smilexr is getting on well with the new life, friends, and work to do.(Admiring) That is really good, and also the discription of his teachers kind of drawed a picture of those professors whom we are dealing with. Not that bad as i have ever thought~~, very nice!

         I got very little chance to talk with my friends this term because we don't have enough time together to attend public courses. But when i meet someone, we would always like to talk about our future choices. This is not about custom, but about real care and willingness to share the thoughts. Most of the time, i didn't get a really determined answer, I guess we are all kind of lost about what we can do and what we choose to do at this perticular stage of our lives. After all, this relates to the future...

         

Actually, I believe I am becoming kind of movie adict now. Some of the
movies are so facinating that I couldn't help watching them several times.
Recently, I have been desired for something facinating on the internet, but
the truth is, almost all those movies I have interest in were reviewed
several times until I came up with this great movie.
     When it comes to the world "great", I mean it is not like the other
comedies I favored, this is something about"glory" of a group, this is about
dignity and determination, this is about the belief I have been hold for my
life.
     When the first and most important character showed his face, I found
kind of special charm in him revealed form the bright eyes. He was a
basketball coach for a women team. Then as was always the case, he got a job
to coach Western Texas team which was very weak and lack of energy in
training. What he did in the preliminary work was really amazing to most of
the related staff in the school--he recruited seven black people with full
scholarship, and some of the fund on the road was even his own saving. This
wasn't something pleasant since the school he worked was not that
atteractive to those talented players. But with the promise of letting those
boys play their own game( that was pretty difficult for black people at that
time), those players hit the road to their dream.
     They got talent and it was not surprising they came all the way to the
final. However, things went even worse with this process. They got terrific
mails, terror attack and even worse treatment on the gym where they were
playing. Sometimes, some of them got really scared about he situation, and
so was the case with the coach and his family. Sometimes, they felt lost
about what they were doing or did it worth their efforts and life for their
dream. But they finally came to realize that they were not just fighting for
the championship, but something more important, this was about dignity,
about glory, about the belief. The best way to face those unfair was to
fight back and win instead of avoiding and getting back.
     Finally, they won the prize with the hope of all the blacks, and this
game became a record of five blacks to five whites( the first time in
history).
      As a matter of fact, the movie itself was really shocking and moving,
and i cannot just make it clear. The movie is strongly recommended.(^-^)
--

I have never stayed up for the whole night, even in the Eve of the new year,even no

thoughts like that had come into my mind. However, quite unexpectedly, i watched

all the three matches of the WorldCup last night , in spite of the fact that it is during

the special time of final exams.

Actually, it has long since i fell in love with football. The vivid scene of my family

stayed up for the match of France VS Italy is still in my mind. That is the first time

i was so engaged in something.

The WorldCup is really something exciting and attracts a lot of fans. Those gestures

 techniues and cooperations(teamwork)......

It is good to know there is still something that could ignite my passion. It is also a

good feeling to see the long missing dawn! Even before i could realize, birds have

already got up for the new day!

今天，几乎一个学期的同学想借我的笔记看看，其实很明白，我笔记上辛辛苦苦记得老师说的重点，

另一个同学，同样想“借用”一下我的劳动成果，

At first, i think i can handle it just like nothing had happened. But still, i was a little angry when faced with these kind of problems. At last, i always did what they want me to, giving out my work with smiling. But deep in my heart, i do not want to do that. At least, it is not fair., especially when you are faced with someone that you donot like.  In the end, i always tell myself the God knows all about this, and he will be fair enough if you believed in this. Pay less attention to what the others had done, just focus on your own work, and make it perfect!

  My father  always tells me to be easy on others, and strict on myself. Although, i know that for sure, but it is hard to tell the feeling when this came to yourself.

Ok, still, i am working on this, i think i will be the person i want to be finally.

Good luck to me and my best friends in the final exam!

it is indeed the final exam, so just bless me to try my best!

Pain past is pleasure.

Wisdom in the mind is better than the money in the hand.

Nothing is impossible for a willing heart.

All things are difficult before they are easy.

Great hopes make great man.

God help those who help themselves.

Four short words sum up what has lifted most successful individuals above the crowd: a little bit more.

East or west, home is best.

Two heads are better than one.

Good company on the road is the shortest cut.

Constant dropping wears the stone.

哈哈，原来我的水平也能上马路了。当然有人保护了，那些轮滑协会的技术超牛的，羡慕啊，不仅是技术，还有战靴，很强。回来就把自己的鞋又改造了一番，hehe也算动了动脑。其实今天在天塔玩得还不错，最深的感觉是自己的技术亟待提高，不比不知道，一比吓一跳，虽不要那么专业，也要有模有样。

 

要加油了！

Kind of disaster to me.

There are about six people in my dormintory here in college. That is not something strange. But as the time goes on, I became to perceive the difference between us, especially under the pressure of competition in the future. I believe people is kind of animal which can adapt himself to the environment. So everyone has his own way to get what he want, I mean.

 

This afternoon, I was just enjoying my time alone in the dormintory, then there they came. Actually, I do not mind their presentation, but what i could not bear was the noise they made. Most of the time, it was something boring and meaningless which is completely repeated for several times. Sometimes they could keep on talking for so long that get close to my limit. At first, I really want to show my respect and kindness, but then I realize that i should have my own right to do whatever i want. Yes, kindness can only be recognized compared with angry look!!!

 

 

Human beings is really a  kind of emotional creature!

Maybe just now you feel something was like a bolt from the blue, then you kept that in your diary or some other places.  What is interesting is that when you review those records,you will find to have acted like that was really stupid .

 

Whether we concede or not, there is a mawkish school girl with a crude mind deep in the bottom of our hearts.

 

haha, that is it. Sometimes we to stand in the point of a complete outsider, nothing can destruct your mood.

 

 

all of a sudden, i would like to watch that movie again.

 

in fact, it is the most enjoyable movie i have ever seen.  i watched it in a place like cinema. that is really a great experience. the screen is large enough and the audio seet is excellent, i can still remember that night when we had a real marry Christmas.

那曾经的感觉。。。喜欢那音乐的感觉。。。

maybe it is because i have watched too many movies. Suddenly, my taste is formed, and i don't waste time on the movies which i am not interested in.  At the very beginning, i have fewer chance to the movies on the internet because of no computer.    However, God always play a joke on you.  You will always ignore what you have got .  Now so many movies to choose from, but as you can sense no interest exist.

 

Sometimes, surfing on the internet is really time-consuming. The most efficient way is to have the specific motive and something that worth the time.Ok, maybe i am still in the primary stage of making use of the sause on the internet.  

 

Just now, i read about the jounals of one of my friends , she is kind of enthusiasm since high school.  It suddenly came into my mind that this may be the part that is missing in my life.---something not that serious and something more relaxing. 

      Actually, i have changed a lot in the last few years. I can still remember those days when i was too eager to talk to a native speaking, no matter what the topic was. They were always more ideal in my mind. I was just trapped by my idea while the most simple principle  was ignored. Definitely, there are always excellent ones coexisting with the ordinary people. 

    Yestaday,I ran into a guy who is working with some native speakers on bussiness. I am really impressed by his words. Most of the time, we are consuming time to talk about the basic problems with foreigners, not untill we had something really specific and proffesional can we have a further discussion.